It Is Well

I know, I know...I haven't posted in awhile. Shocker, right?? But I mean, I've had a lot going on. I've learned a lot these past few months. I've learned that I am still a control freak. God help my future children and any potential spouse they meet. Yeah...I'm gonna be THAT kind of mother-in-law. In the process of all the "stuff" I've had going on, I've learned that God is very capable of doing His part...as long as I am doing my part. As in, just doing my part. Not both of ours together. I am not God. And everyone said...amen. 

My life in the past year has been rather interesting, yet heartbreaking, yet joyful. It's been like a roller coaster, to say the least. I hate roller coasters lol. There have been good moments, bad moments, and all those in-between moments that you just don't know what to do with. I've prayed, and cried, and yelled, and cried some more. You get the picture. It ain't been pretty. But somewhere in the midst of all the excitement, I lost sight of the fact that God is in control...and as long as I had the steering wheel....He didn't. They don't make cars with two steering wheels. How often do we forget that in our relationship with God? When we think we are trying to help and take control over our own lives, over our own struggles...we are really, really screwing it up. 

My sweet husband took me to a cabin getaway for my birthday last weekend. Goodness, I can't explain to you how bad I needed that. Time to myself, time with my husband, and most importantly...time with The Lord. Let me tell you, friends. God can do more with your hurt in one hour of His presence...than a year full of counseling. That was me. One thing I learned over that weekend is that, if you want God to do the super...you're going to have to do the natural.  If God tells you to dig a ditch with sunny skies and no rain clouds in sight...you dig a ditch expecting the rain. We don't need to  understand where the rain is going to come from to dig that ditch. He doesn't call us to have enough faith to finish. He calls us to have enough faith to start. 

A few months ago, I found out I had a polyp on my uterus. Only surgery would remove it. I had finally went to the doctor to find out, why after almost 12 years...I hadn't gotten pregnant. That was my answer. A polyp that was a couple of centimeters wide. I prayed and believed that God would remove my polyp so that I wouldn't have to undergo surgery. Of course they didn't do another ultrasound before surgery. But as I was laying on the operating table, the doctor could not find the polyp anywhere! I woke up out of anesthesia praising The Lord before I even knew the polyp was gone! During my follow up appointment, I was informed that it was likely that I could get pregnant now that the polyp was no longer in my way. But being an obese person....it was not recommended for me to get pregnant. I would have to lose weight to make it safe for me to carry a baby. 

You see, God performed the super on his part. There's no way I could've removed that polyp on my own. But now, the ball is in my court. I've known in my heart for years that losing weight, getting healthy, was His ultimate goal for me. This is the road to my blessing, to my dream of having a family. This is my part. God isn't going to move me around like a little puppet, making me exercise and eat right. I've got to do that. But I have the ultimate goal to reach. 

I also learned that any problem that seemed to have somehow spiraled out of control, is not in my ability to fix. We can't fix people. Only God can. I've learned to let go of situations that I had no business trying to fix. It was beyond my power. I'm still praying for those situations and those people. But I am no longer allowing it to consume my thoughts or my joy! 

God doesn't really need our offerings or sacrifices. It has everything to do with our hearts. He wants to see how willing we are. He wants to see the condition of our hearts. You know the saying, "For with the overflow of the heart, the mouth speaks".  And the praises go up. And our offerings are laid down. But if you find yourself complaining more often than you are giving praise and thanks...it may be time to re-evaluate the condition of your heart. Trust me I know, life isn't fair and struggles and battles aren't fair. And sometimes we get wounded, multiple times, every day. But God has the power to heal those wounds, it's called the blood of Jesus. It's like an antibiotic salve. Cleans out those wounds, and the infection that comes with it. So if you're facing struggles and trials that seem giant sized, out of your control. I encourage you to hand them over to The Lord. Surrender all you feel, all you've tried, and all your heart to Him. Let Him show you what your part is so He can move on your behalf. Listen to His voice, which can clearly be heard spending time in His presence. Let me leave you with a scripture and a song.

John 14:25-27...“These things I have spoken to you while abiding with you. But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all that I said to you. Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful".

It Is Well- Kristene DiMarco and Bethel Music

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