Give Thanks!
There have been days I've felt angry, frustrated, confused, disappointed, sick, and sad. All of these emotions have taken over me at least once in the past two months. And I admit, sometimes, they've just been too much to do anything. Work, go to church, live. Yep. I wish I could say that I've been super strong and full of faith during these weak moments and really dug my heels in, but I haven't. It's just been so hard. I didn't feel like being strong. I didn't feel like being positive. I was tired. I was wore out.
I didn't feel like being at church on Mother's Day for the simple fact that I, once again, don't yet have children. Every other year, I could do it. But sometimes you get so tired of being strong, being brave, being "happy" and positive. I just wasn't able to do it. I didn't want to be told Happy Mothers Day out of pity. I didn't want a card from my husband saying Happy Mothers Day. I really just wanted to be by myself. It was around the same time that I was going to the doctor to find out why after almost 12 years of marriage, I don't have any children. And the relationship I have with my own mother hasn't quite been the same since a tragedy happened last year. So with all of that combined together...I just couldn't do it.
I found out exactly five days ago that I polyp on my uterus. Of course. And the only way to fix it, is surgery. And of course, me being "morbidly obese" makes surgery risky (so says the doctor). So apparently, there has been a lot of attack on my body lately, from the virus...this really bad toothache that needs extraction...and the bad news about my uterus. BUT GOD. Yep...there it is :)
I feel like it's necessary to tell you that I am sure to get victory over all of this. And how do I know this? Because I have a testimony. And I have a word. And the bible says that we are overcomers by the word of our testimony. OVERCOMERS.
The dictionary defines OVERCOME as "to win a victory over"..."to defeat"..."to prevail over". So see, the bible already tells us we will win the battle and become victorious by the word of our testimony!
TESTIMONY means "the statement or declaration of a witness". We are the witnesses of Jesus Christ and all that He has done for us. This is why it is so important for us to share our testimony. When we declare His goodness in our lives, we are claiming victory every single time! Giving thanks to God in spite of our circumstances does the same thing. This is why thanksgiving and praise is so important.
The Lord has spoken to my heart about Thankfulness a lot lately. And it's because He knows that a thankful heart renders victory over our enemies! Our thankfulness is like a security gate around our hearts. It keeps fears and doubts fenced out. It is protection. It's so easy to let all of these negative emotions that come with every day life struggles, come in and steal our joy and peace. But thankfulness locks the gate! I am not saying you need to thank God for you struggles. No, no, no. Thank The Lord for all He has done in times past. Remember how good He's been to you. He is constant, He is faithful, and He never changes. His faithfulness will follow you from your past, into your present, and to your future. So whether you're in the valley, the darkness, or on the mountain top...praise and thank Him. I've come too far to give up now, and to not see my promises and victory come to pass! I will forever praise and thank my Jesus for all He has done for me, and all that He'll do in my future. My life's goal has always been to bring glory to His name, whatever my circumstances may have been. It shall continue. May He be glorified in all of this!
Let me leave you with a very fitting scripture.
Psalm 100:4-5 (NASB)...
"Enter His gates with Thanksgiving, and His courts with praise. Give thanks to Him, bless His name. For The Lord is good; His lovingkindness is everlasting and His faithfulness to all generations".
Love,
Amanda B
I didn't feel like being at church on Mother's Day for the simple fact that I, once again, don't yet have children. Every other year, I could do it. But sometimes you get so tired of being strong, being brave, being "happy" and positive. I just wasn't able to do it. I didn't want to be told Happy Mothers Day out of pity. I didn't want a card from my husband saying Happy Mothers Day. I really just wanted to be by myself. It was around the same time that I was going to the doctor to find out why after almost 12 years of marriage, I don't have any children. And the relationship I have with my own mother hasn't quite been the same since a tragedy happened last year. So with all of that combined together...I just couldn't do it.
I found out exactly five days ago that I polyp on my uterus. Of course. And the only way to fix it, is surgery. And of course, me being "morbidly obese" makes surgery risky (so says the doctor). So apparently, there has been a lot of attack on my body lately, from the virus...this really bad toothache that needs extraction...and the bad news about my uterus. BUT GOD. Yep...there it is :)
I feel like it's necessary to tell you that I am sure to get victory over all of this. And how do I know this? Because I have a testimony. And I have a word. And the bible says that we are overcomers by the word of our testimony. OVERCOMERS.
The dictionary defines OVERCOME as "to win a victory over"..."to defeat"..."to prevail over". So see, the bible already tells us we will win the battle and become victorious by the word of our testimony!
TESTIMONY means "the statement or declaration of a witness". We are the witnesses of Jesus Christ and all that He has done for us. This is why it is so important for us to share our testimony. When we declare His goodness in our lives, we are claiming victory every single time! Giving thanks to God in spite of our circumstances does the same thing. This is why thanksgiving and praise is so important.
The Lord has spoken to my heart about Thankfulness a lot lately. And it's because He knows that a thankful heart renders victory over our enemies! Our thankfulness is like a security gate around our hearts. It keeps fears and doubts fenced out. It is protection. It's so easy to let all of these negative emotions that come with every day life struggles, come in and steal our joy and peace. But thankfulness locks the gate! I am not saying you need to thank God for you struggles. No, no, no. Thank The Lord for all He has done in times past. Remember how good He's been to you. He is constant, He is faithful, and He never changes. His faithfulness will follow you from your past, into your present, and to your future. So whether you're in the valley, the darkness, or on the mountain top...praise and thank Him. I've come too far to give up now, and to not see my promises and victory come to pass! I will forever praise and thank my Jesus for all He has done for me, and all that He'll do in my future. My life's goal has always been to bring glory to His name, whatever my circumstances may have been. It shall continue. May He be glorified in all of this!
Let me leave you with a very fitting scripture.
Psalm 100:4-5 (NASB)...
"Enter His gates with Thanksgiving, and His courts with praise. Give thanks to Him, bless His name. For The Lord is good; His lovingkindness is everlasting and His faithfulness to all generations".
Love,
Amanda B
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