Fly Eagle, Fly

I've had my share of shove down, kick down, and beat-the-crap-out-of-you moments in my life. If you're alive, you've experienced the same things. But it just seems as though I've had A LOT of those this year. I started a healthy journey this year. I'm not going to say weight loss journey, because honestly....God isn't concerned about that. He wants me healthy, and weight loss will be a result of it. But during the few months I've been doing this, I've been knocked down so many times. And every time I go back to this wall to climb it, it seems bigger than before. I injured my back while working out a couple of months ago, and it seems like I have to start over. I haven't really gained any weight back, thank goodness! But it's pushed me back. I told myself over the weekend it was impossible. I told my husband, "there's no way I'm getting over that thing, because every time it gets bigger, and I haven't even made it halfway up yet ". I'm so desperate to get over this wall, because a dream lies on the other side. A dream I have waited over 14 years for. I've pleaded with God to just tear it down so I can get to it already. He says no lol. Here's why.

God said we would have joy that comes in the morning. You know what that means, right? Pain is going to come before the joy. He said He will give strength for our weaknesses. Peace for our chaos. Love for our hurt. Unfortunately, He never said anything about getting through life scratch free. But in pain, is where we learn all of the hard lessons. In pain, is where we grow closer to God and get to know Him more. In pain, is where we learn to trust that His ways are higher. I just knew I wasn't getting over this wall. But that was the problem. Of course I alone couldn't do it. I had this mentality that I somehow had to do this all on my own, with my own strength and fight. I had the mentality the only way over it was to climb. 

God had a completely different way :)

I was at church yesterday praising my problem to Him. Yeah I said that right. I'm talking about a garment of praise for my heaviness (Isaiah 61:3). He already knew my struggles, because he whispered in my heart FLY. Then I heard, like an eagle. Isaiah 40:31 says, "Yet those who wait for The Lord will find new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles, they will run and not get tired, They will walk and not become weary". The enemy blinds us with his schemes and gets us to think we've been left in solitude to deal with our own problems. But God said He would never leave us or forsake us. God doesn't step back during our struggles. We do. But if we stay close to Him and his word, he promises to make a way when there seems to be no way. Sometimes, that's flying. 

How common is it that we always try to accomplish things in our own strength and power? I am famous for it. There's always a way out when we trust God. Sometimes it's over the wall. Sometimes it's through it. But you can always guarantee victory is on the other side. Victory is in our blood, and as long we stand with Him, we'll see it.