Unwanted Assignment
I don’t know you, I don’t know your story, and I don’t know your journey. But please…..raise your hand if you are going through trials and assignments you don’t particularly want to be in. (Raises hand). Well, I hope that you find some encouragement in this post for those unwanted assignments you would have never picked out for yourself lol.
That’s me. I am a foster mom. This was not my choice. If I had it my way, I would have been like Jesus in the garden of Gethsemane, praying and pleading for God to let this cup pass over me. Can I get an Amen? Nonetheless, I’ve still prayed many times for the will of God to be done through me. Which brought me to where I am today…..a foster mom. Dealing with a child who has ADHD, PTSD, meltdowns, bad anxiety, and mental and emotional scarring is not a job I would have volunteered for. Especially as a parent newbie.
My original plan, was to birth my own children. Notice how I said MY. It’s always been a desire of mine, to have my own children. But sometimes, life doesn’t work out the way you want it to and you find yourself at age 36, with no children. So you just have to be in a place of accepting God’s will over your own. Like any good father, He’s not going to give us assignments that won’t produce anything. So you know what that means. Romans 5:3…..”And not only this, but we also exult in our tribulations, knowing that tribulation brings about perseverance; and perseverance, proven character; and proven character, hope“. See where I am going with this? Instead, He will give us assignments that will help us grow in the area of our spirits where we need it the most. Sometimes, the assignment seems simple and easy. Other times, it may seem like the hardest, most difficult thing you’ve ever had to endure. But endure you must, for it shall produce character within us!
There is always a much bigger picture than ourselves when we are in full submission to God. But when we are half in, and half out…..it is so easy to lose sight of the purpose of the assignment, and we can easily be tempted by the enemy to quit. But don’t!
Just because we face obstacles in the middle of God’s will…..doesn’t mean it’s not God’s will. Take the blinders off your eyes. Walking with Jesus and being in full submission to Him, is no walk in the park. He only said “my yoke is easy, and my burden is light”. He never said there would be no burden. But that in Him, you would find the strength, grace, love, and rest you need for those moments of weakness when the assignment seems too much to bear. The Lord just wants us to grow closer to him. How will we ever know his love, if we never go through heartbreak? How will we ever know his grace, if we never experience failure? How will we ever know his strength, if we never become weak? How will we ever know his peace, if we never experience chaos? And how will we ever know his hope, if we never experience disappointment? We should be so thankful that we serve a God who wants us to get close enough to Him so we can know Him. He isn’t just some God who just sits high on a throne and waits for opportunities for us to mess up, so he can take his magnifying glass to our ant-sized bodies and burn us off the face of the earth. He is never EVER going to leave you or forsake you! He is right there with you in your most difficult assignments and trials.
Need grace? You got it. Need rest? Yes it’s also there. Need strength? His joy will fix that!
A couple of weekends ago I received a lovely gift basket from a local church. It contained some great things. My favorite one, was called the “Jar of Hope”. Inside there are several encouraging bible verses for foster parents. This week so far has been tough. So as I was pulling out these verses one at a time, I came across one that spoke volumes to me for my current life struggles……
Hebrews 10:35-36…..”Therefore, do not throw away your confidence, which has a great reward. For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God, you may receive what was promised”.
Don’t let the enemy strip you of the blessing that is hidden in your assignment! I heard someone on the radio once say, “Every gift comes wrapped in a problem”. Ain’t that the truth! Don’t quit now. You got this. Keep moving forward to complete your assignment. Keep pressing into God, and let him refresh you and give you rest. I know you’re exhausted. But now is when you need to let the spirit of God inside of you lead, and keep you from falling prey to temptation. God has chosen you for this moment, for this assignment because He knew you had what it takes to complete it.
Trust me, I have doubted this several times since I started this assignment 4 months ago. I knew there had to have been someone, ANYONE else who would have handled this assignment much better than me. I could have given God some recommendations lol. But He chose me….the parent newbie. He also chose David, who defeated a giant with one stone.
Whatever God starts, He will finish faithfully.
I will leave you with one last verse…..
Hebrews 6:10-12 (The Message)…“God doesn’t miss anything. He knows perfectly well all the love you’ve shown him by helping needy Christians, and that you keep at it. And now I want each of you to extend that same intensity toward a full-bodied hope, and keep at it till the finish. Don’t drag your feet. Be like those who stay the course with committed faith and then get everything promised to them.”
That’s me. I am a foster mom. This was not my choice. If I had it my way, I would have been like Jesus in the garden of Gethsemane, praying and pleading for God to let this cup pass over me. Can I get an Amen? Nonetheless, I’ve still prayed many times for the will of God to be done through me. Which brought me to where I am today…..a foster mom. Dealing with a child who has ADHD, PTSD, meltdowns, bad anxiety, and mental and emotional scarring is not a job I would have volunteered for. Especially as a parent newbie.
My original plan, was to birth my own children. Notice how I said MY. It’s always been a desire of mine, to have my own children. But sometimes, life doesn’t work out the way you want it to and you find yourself at age 36, with no children. So you just have to be in a place of accepting God’s will over your own. Like any good father, He’s not going to give us assignments that won’t produce anything. So you know what that means. Romans 5:3…..”And not only this, but we also exult in our tribulations, knowing that tribulation brings about perseverance; and perseverance, proven character; and proven character, hope“. See where I am going with this? Instead, He will give us assignments that will help us grow in the area of our spirits where we need it the most. Sometimes, the assignment seems simple and easy. Other times, it may seem like the hardest, most difficult thing you’ve ever had to endure. But endure you must, for it shall produce character within us!
There is always a much bigger picture than ourselves when we are in full submission to God. But when we are half in, and half out…..it is so easy to lose sight of the purpose of the assignment, and we can easily be tempted by the enemy to quit. But don’t!
Just because we face obstacles in the middle of God’s will…..doesn’t mean it’s not God’s will. Take the blinders off your eyes. Walking with Jesus and being in full submission to Him, is no walk in the park. He only said “my yoke is easy, and my burden is light”. He never said there would be no burden. But that in Him, you would find the strength, grace, love, and rest you need for those moments of weakness when the assignment seems too much to bear. The Lord just wants us to grow closer to him. How will we ever know his love, if we never go through heartbreak? How will we ever know his grace, if we never experience failure? How will we ever know his strength, if we never become weak? How will we ever know his peace, if we never experience chaos? And how will we ever know his hope, if we never experience disappointment? We should be so thankful that we serve a God who wants us to get close enough to Him so we can know Him. He isn’t just some God who just sits high on a throne and waits for opportunities for us to mess up, so he can take his magnifying glass to our ant-sized bodies and burn us off the face of the earth. He is never EVER going to leave you or forsake you! He is right there with you in your most difficult assignments and trials.
Need grace? You got it. Need rest? Yes it’s also there. Need strength? His joy will fix that!
A couple of weekends ago I received a lovely gift basket from a local church. It contained some great things. My favorite one, was called the “Jar of Hope”. Inside there are several encouraging bible verses for foster parents. This week so far has been tough. So as I was pulling out these verses one at a time, I came across one that spoke volumes to me for my current life struggles……
Hebrews 10:35-36…..”Therefore, do not throw away your confidence, which has a great reward. For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God, you may receive what was promised”.
Don’t let the enemy strip you of the blessing that is hidden in your assignment! I heard someone on the radio once say, “Every gift comes wrapped in a problem”. Ain’t that the truth! Don’t quit now. You got this. Keep moving forward to complete your assignment. Keep pressing into God, and let him refresh you and give you rest. I know you’re exhausted. But now is when you need to let the spirit of God inside of you lead, and keep you from falling prey to temptation. God has chosen you for this moment, for this assignment because He knew you had what it takes to complete it.
Trust me, I have doubted this several times since I started this assignment 4 months ago. I knew there had to have been someone, ANYONE else who would have handled this assignment much better than me. I could have given God some recommendations lol. But He chose me….the parent newbie. He also chose David, who defeated a giant with one stone.
Whatever God starts, He will finish faithfully.
I will leave you with one last verse…..
Hebrews 6:10-12 (The Message)…“God doesn’t miss anything. He knows perfectly well all the love you’ve shown him by helping needy Christians, and that you keep at it. And now I want each of you to extend that same intensity toward a full-bodied hope, and keep at it till the finish. Don’t drag your feet. Be like those who stay the course with committed faith and then get everything promised to them.”
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